Not an Unfamiliar Scene
After a long time, someone has to leave
For our sake, I’m going to make it be me
Because I don’t think you would,
even if we’d both be better for it
I think that we could’ve been good partners
In which sense, I’m not sure
We were good partners, just not good enough
to not cross each other at the finish line
The thought of some other world where
my world didn’t fall apart over and over
because we still are
will haunt me for a great deal, and even though it hurts
and I would never want to wish the worst upon you,
the pain would be bearable, surely, to you
I hope it haunts you too
You couldn’t ruin me because you didn’t want to
Wouldn’t let me feel the cold, but your scarf
was never a decent substitute for your arms to be held in
And the ring you made from your hands
has been holding mine for too long
I couldn’t because
words were my love and my vice
And you were usually the one listening, but sometimes
your name was the words too, as were you
I’m sorry to anyone who has had to hear it all,
so mostly to you
And you know that I loved being right
but it’s never
felt like this before
Don’t worry about saying anything to me
I could never surprise you, so you know
And I was terrible at sneaking around you
even just to plan a party, so please pretend,
for me,
you don’t notice when I leave
This is what I said at the start
